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A thing is happening.

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Beauty's at work through 
pure and selfless acceptance,

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through everyday transcendence
that remedies the chaos,

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an antidote to the sorrow 
on this earth for eternity.

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Music heard so deeply 
that it is not heard at all.

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You are the music while the music lasts.

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Insist on beauty in spite of everything.

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Decorum.

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As I'm walking, I see 
you on your motorbike.

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I can see your blue eyes 
and nose peering underneath

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the crash helmet.

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And it's not you.

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It's just a man that looks like you.

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I'm disappointed every time.

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Every time I see a man on a motorbike,
I think it's my dad.

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I'm not sure why this is.

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Sometimes I forget 
what your bike looks like.

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Everyone's eyes and faces 
look the same underneath

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black crash helmets.

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From a distance, everyone looks like you.

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Although soon I realize it's not.

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I remember you used 
to paint pictures of naked women

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in crash helmets.

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Their identities were hidden too.

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I always wondered who these women were,

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their shiny black round heads 
like lollipops.

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Props.

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Who were they, dad?

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(inhales softly)

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(exhales softly)

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(silence until 1:54)

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Breath.

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(approaching footsteps)

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A laughing heart...

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Your life is your life.

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Don't let it be clubbed into submission.

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Be on the watch.
There are ways out.

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There's light somewhere.

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It may not be much light, 
but it beats the darkness.

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Be on the watch.

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The gods will offer you chances.

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Know them. Take them.

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You can't beat death, 
but you can beat death in life sometimes.

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And the more often you learn to do it,

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the more light there will be.

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Your life is your life.

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Know it while you have it.

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You are marvelous.

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The gods wait to delight in you.

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Rascal was a wildcat 
when it was four degrees outside.

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When I moved in she'd stand 
with me in winter and rain,

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sleep with me, mostly outside.

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Hunter, I never tried to break her spirit.

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Hit by a car in front of me.

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I was shocked.

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I buried her by cat litter and wild food,

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her sunshine place 
could only dig the stones

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because of city sewage pipes 
about three or four feet.

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I wish it was deeper, next to keep 
other animals from digging her up.

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When I find stones, I'll cover her up

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[?] began to swell.

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If so, I'll put more soil on top.

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First, cat and friend.

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Hi. Yeah.

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I saw you last night. Hmm.

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I was in the club. Yup.

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I saw who you were with too.

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She was holding you so tight.

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Because she knows you want me.

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Oh, naw. She can't love you.

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She can't love you like I do.

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I said to myself that 
you must be out of your mind.

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You were there with somebody else.

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You know you're wasting your time.

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Oh, no.

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But she can't love you.

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She can't love you like I do.

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You're missing my beat
and I needing your moves.

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Let's give it one more try.
Let's get back in the groove.

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Because she can't love you.

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She can't love you like I do.

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When I was younger, 
my father was the producer

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of a transvestite troupe
and it seemed a dream for me

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to be able to observe 
what was behind the curtain.

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I think this is when it all started,
while growing up.

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I kept on searching 
for this feeling of wonder,

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this taste for metamorphosis.

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I [direct speak] of cabarets,
shows are even strange.

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From video to another, 
off the same protagonist progresses

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in this mysterious 
and phantasmagorical universe.

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I consider my videos as living paintings.

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I use the camera 
as a painter with his brushes.

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What could my world be made of?

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Red. Green. Blue.

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Red. Green. Blue.

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Red. Green. Blue.

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If you want to turn yourself 
into a proud samurai warrior,

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you need the katana samurai sword.

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This high-quality plastic weapon 
is a Japanese long sword

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which will look just perfect 
with your traditional Japanese hakama.

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And the traditional Japanese geta.

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And add the finishing touch 
to your Asian outfit:

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the black and gold katana samurai sword

104
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comes with a matching black scabbard

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so it can be stored safely.

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The Japanese sword 
will protect you in fights

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and is sure to make you 
an eye-catcher in any party.

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Size length, 105 centimeters.

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Blade length, 70 centimeters.

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Material, plastic.

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Yeah, so... a couple years ago

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a bunch of us went down to the beach

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and we got there and coast guards running

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all up and down the sand like,
"You can't get in the water."

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You know?

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Screaming at us.

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So we waited a bit and they went 
further down the beach

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and then we decided we would go.

119
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Like, what the fuck?
Why did we come here?

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So my buddy went down there and he's like,

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"All good, come down here, man."

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So I walked over and we looked down.

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And we couldn't see it 
from where we were parked,

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but when we looked down, 
we were really close.

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You looked down and there 
just all these fucking jellyfish.

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Like, one every... like all over the place.

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One every two or three feet.

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And from where we were standing,
you couldn't really tell

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if they were living or dead, you know?

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'Cause some of them were still moving,

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but then others were just totally limp.

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So... tell me what it's like 
growing up in Singapore.

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Well, we had... I had 
these really magnificent memories

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of my childhood.

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We had these magnificent playgrounds.

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There was, like, these big watermelons.

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I remember I used to climb 
to the top of the watermelon

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and I'd rub myself on the ridges

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to give myself pleasure.

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You think we could fall 
in love on the internet?

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No.

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'Cause it wouldn't be love.
It'd just be porn.

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I don't think so.

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[Seem] from a distance,
almost everything looks beautiful.

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As the distance increases, 
the more you romanticize.

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All the small details from 
the everyday reminisces the past.

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Because things we want to forget 
are the thing we can never forget.

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DO IT!

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JUST DO IT!

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Don't let your dreams be dreams.

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Yesterday you said tomorrow.

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So just DO IT!

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Make your dreams come true!

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Just DO IT!

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Some people dream of success
while you're gonna wake up

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and work hard at it!

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Nothing is impossible.

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You should get to the point
where anyone else would quit

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and you're not gonna stop there.

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No, what are you waiting for?

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DO IT!

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Just... DO IT!

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Yes, you can!

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Just do it.

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If you're tired of starting over,
stop giving up.

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Emerging gaming technologies 
operate within a nexus

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of social relationships that 
characterize the modern world.

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These technologies enable 
a constant commentary

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which has become 
the quintessential quality of power,

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often operating as mechanisms 
that dictate our action

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and pre-ordain our expectations.

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The work interrogates 
the cultural logic of feedback

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as a metaphor and material condition.

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It is live, cybernetic, reactive.

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Sensory data translated 
through visual and tactile apparatus.

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Disillusion of the virtual 
and corporeal boundary,

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reorienting perspective of the existing
and the alternative space and time.

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An avatar in symbiosis with the subject,

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taking the lead in a continuous loop 
of action and reaction.

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We're surrounded by forms.

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Yet it's still so elusive, right?

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You know, sometimes it feels 
like we fill that void between us

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with something that grows slowly,

184
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like it's overtaking us or something.

185
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Through the way we speak,
or what we do,

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where we put stuff around us,

187
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even the stances we inhabit
or the faces we make

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or even the body parts, you know?

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The food we eat. Whatever.

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Sometimes it gets heavier, you know?

191
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Or more light, but 
it's like all the distinctions

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are starting to melt away.

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The forms, the resemblances,
the symmetries,

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the repetitions, the patterns.

195
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Patterns that we know we have always had,

196
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that have always been there
and we're not sure why.

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And now... the outside looks 
more and more like the images

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that were contained in us 
since the beginning.

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Hi. Thank you for waiting.

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We've been running 
a little bit behind today.

201
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Right.

202
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As you know, we've taken a few readings

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and these get sent away.

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We have a look at them.
We meet, a group of us.

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Many years of experience.

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We have a look and we see what we can see.

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Does that make sense?

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If I ju--

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If you just have a look here, really...

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The system's really slow, 
so it's a case of monitoring.

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And you monitoring 
and you just letting us know

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if you notice anything unusual.

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Would you be able to do this?

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Hmm?

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You have any questions?

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Double.

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Double sided.

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Minds. Different paths.

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One runs after sunlight,
one follows the rising moon.

220
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They either congregate, 
connect, intersect, touch,

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unite at sunset for eclipses...

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play and then separate 
for long interstices.

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Later, re-enacting past meetings 
forever lost in repetition.

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Ebb and flow, edging closer.

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Expanding warmth.

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That point just before the pressure bursts.

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Capillary rush.

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Tension. Resisting.

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Each muscle, each limb, 
each breath under control for now.

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Questions of limitations 
dissolve into the blur.

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Eyes open, but horizons fall away.

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The burn increases now.

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(Shia grunts)

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The pain sensors...

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one of you escapes, but I pull you back.

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Heh. Duality.

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Existing only as a whole.

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Weakened by quivering joints.

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Lungs push for release,
a struggle to hold on.

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Control surrendered, suspended in dullness.

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Eyes close.

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Now numb.

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Running, reaching, falling, 
skipping, turning, sliding, walking.

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These are all words 
that describe ways of moving.

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Each action is packed 
with many micro-movements.

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It's hard for us to recognize 
these small movements individually.

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When describing how to walk, 
we use the simplest terms possible

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and struggle to explain all 
the mechanics of a simple movement.

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Understanding body movement 
in the terms of everyday language

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should be simple, however 
our muscle memory takes over

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for our brain and our body 
becomes a strange system

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of levers and pulleys 
that maneuver by our command.

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She sits.

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I squirt toothpaste in my mouth.

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I start to brush.

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She's looking at me.
I look at her.

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I keep brushing whilst looking.

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I'll start looking at her.
She looks at me

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and I continue to brush, 
getting faster, getting harder.

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I start to gag.

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My eyes leak and I still look at her.

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She looks at me and I keep brushing, gaggin.

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I feel like I'm gonna be sick.

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Am I gonna be sick?

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Gagging! Paste down my face, 
my hair, on my shirt.

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Dripping, and I still look at her
and she looks at me.

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Enough.

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The sculpture, the painter,
the video maker,

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the figure of the artist has been 
as fetishized in Western culture

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as the Hollywood actor,
the town drunk or the Messiah himself.

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[Michael Peter's take shots],
attempts to reconfigure

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the concept of creator or creatrix
by placing himself in the position

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of artist as meme.

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Watch, enjoy, and be one.

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We are all children of the universe.

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Yeah, absolutely.

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I feel my absence 
in the absence of all things.

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Belief in living has been 
contorted into this shortened life

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of contempt and pre-determined in prison.

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And I...

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(sighs)

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I feel it all collapsing.

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I CAN'T FUCKING EMBRACE IT!

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(sighs)

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(sighs)

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[It's near] and here I stand...

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wasting the last moments, 
cursing thee who impress me this

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[your fate].

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You give nothing.

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No mercy, no empathy.

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Only self-hate.

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You are just a fucking plaything.

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An amusement replicating the cries of man.

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You replay the last moments 
of my life over and over and over!

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I'm just a fucking charade 
suspended at the core of ridicule

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and I pity for those whose end mirrors mine

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and I pity myself.

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(sniffles)

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I'm helpless.

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Thank you.

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I'm tormented by the inescapable

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rewinding collapse.

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Don't let them see me like this.

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Man is under surveillance.

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Where is he going?

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Almost into a state of euphoria, of relief,

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as though he's happy about it.

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He has to act as a looking glass
rather than a mirror

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of social conventions.

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He disintegrated perfectly,
but never reappeared.

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He became translucent to reveal his reality.

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It's impossible unless he is, 
or was, insane.

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He changed his mind.
You know how men are.

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Perhaps it symbolizes something deep 
in the subconscious.

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(silence until 19:43)

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Feeling genuinely upset.

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Tears [level]. Hmm.

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Shame on me.

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My face is [receptical] on surface.

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A surface that's throwing up 
what's already there.

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[Wet ware and ? stuff].

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Confrontation is post. Preferably.

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Living in [?] like over and under.

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With grapple here 
is approaching confrontation.

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Or surface lump rolled out.

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You go through the dump 
to form a projectile semi-bound

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like protest song collapsed.

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Needs filled for no other.

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Forced partly forever as long 
as I leave you together.

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Art hits.

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Whatever I point at is big.

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Snapped leg. Snapped leg. (until 21:35)

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Chalk circle.

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Another one of those days where you think,
"Shit, I've done nothing today."

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This London Underground journey

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needs to excessive 
mental activity performed.

337
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I'm stuck in a strange 
modern day meditation.

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This space asks for an interruption.

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When it happens, it's a moment 
of pure panic and confusion.

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All previous expectations are obliterated.

341
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[A second velation].

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The rules are being broken here.

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Quickly, it passes.

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I'm back in the routine.

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There's an expansion 
of discovery and limitation,

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even if I'm thinking, 
"Fuck. This is boring"

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as I scribble repetitively onto the floor.

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STOP 22:19